I've realized
that it was
my mistake.
I never should have
asked you to value something
you had gotten
for free
for so long.
I should have never given myself
so freely,
to you.
You showed me
that you aren't ready
to give yourself
back to me
in return.
You are only ready
to take
and to ask for more.
It was
my mistake.
You don't get it.
If you treated anyone else
that cared for you
the way you treated me-
they would have walked away.
I want to
right now.
But my shoes are glued.
I'm stuck.
No matter-
I like
running barefoot
anyways.
I asked you
for the least
you could do.
And I would have settled
for just
that.
You laughed and asked
why instead of you
moving one centimeter-
I couldn't move
ten miles
to you.
If I could have
I would have given you
those ten miles.
I would probably
have given you
all the miles
I have left.
But now,
I'm out of gas,
stranded on the side
of the highway,
calling you for a ride home.
And you ask,
why I can't
just walk.
It would be funny
if it weren't so sad,
that the first word I learned
was also the first word
I learned to forget.
No.
I used to say it all the time.
"Do you want peas?"
No.
"Will you feed the dog?"
No.
"Can you PLEASE stop making so much noise?!?!"
NO.
But childhood obstinance
gave way to the yeses
of wanting desperately
to be a grown up.
I started saying yes
to things I had no desire to do.
I've only gotten better at yeses with time.
"Can you help me with homework
after school?"
Sure
"Do you want to dance?"
Absolutely!
"Is it ok if I ditch you to go to Chipotle?"
Works for me.
So by the time
I reached you,
No was no longer in my vo
Love is
cycling slow
so that she doesn't get left behind.
Love is
being the last person up the mountain
so that you can
hold her hand
Through the rough spots.
Love is
telling her she looks beautiful
on days when she needs to hear it.
Love is never hesitating
when she asks you
to choose her.
Love is knowing
when not to ask.
because it would be too much,
and you know
she hates saying no
to you.
Love is saying I'm sorry a lot
and meaning it every time.
Love is running after her
when she starts to walk away.
Love is asking her to come back
and giving her
a reason to stay.
I'm just about
at the end of my rope
with you.
I won't wait around
to be your second choice.
I tried to make
my love stretch enough
for the both of us,
but even Gumby
could never have stretched that far.
Each time I think
I've finally almost done it,
you ask me for another
inch or
foot or
mile.
That I no longer have.
I'm a flexible girl,
I'm too stretchy and forgiving
for my own good
with most people.
I let them bend me
so far out of the shape
that was me
that sometimes
I don't remember how to
snap back into myself.
So now-
I have to pull myself
back and away
from you.
And begin the process
of re-forming
myself into me
again.
Beca
Do you know-
that you've never once
told me
that I look beautiful?
Do you know-
that hearing you
say those three words
would make my day?
Do you know
that little things-
like kind words
and making time
and remembering details-
like birthdays
and the colour of my eyes-
matter?
And I know
that a thirty minute drive
seems like a lot to ask-
but I guarantee
that it would make my day.
I'm not sure
if I've ever
made your day.
But I'm sure I've tried.
With hand knitted hats
and fresh cookies
and poems.
I've tried like hell
to be the reason you smile.
And now-
I don't see you trying
at all.
Maybe thirty minutes is too much
to ask for.
I'd s
One of the Good Ones by mathewswithonet, literature
Literature
One of the Good Ones
My mother never warned me about you.
She warned me about the
Bad boys
And the
Rebels
And the ones with tattoos
And especially,
The ones who rode motorcycles.
But she had nothing but praise
For you.
You were supposed to be
One of the good ones.
You weren’t supposed to
Break my heart and leave me
Gasping for air.
And you have no idea
That you are taking me for granted.
And that every time
I leave your apartment
I feel like a sucker.
Because I keep coming back
To be your pillar
And you wont even be my shoulder
To lean on.
I support all of your weight
How can I not?
It’s in my very nature.
But the moment I need you to be there
To j
I asked you to choose me
And you laughed.
Because the idea that you would
Choose me over her
Is funny.
Funny me, making jokes.
And I laughed too
But on the inside
I felt like I was crumbling into
Little pieces.
Because you have no problem
Asking me to spend all of my time
Coming to see you
And you have no problem
Asking me to put my life
And my school
And my family
On hold.
For you.
But when I asked you to choose me
You laughed.
Funny me, making jokes.
I went to you today,
And asked you to be the shoulder I was in desperate need of
Am in desperate need of.
Still.
And you tried, for a minute.
And then you got tired, or bored
And you stopped listening.
You didn’t want to hear about my problems anymore
And so I stopped telling you
Instead I asked what was up with you
And then instead of getting the shoulder
I was in desperate need of
I became your wall
To bounce all of your ideas off of
Like ten million little bouncy rubber balls
That you buy from a machine for a quarter.
I put on my happy face
And I became your pillar
To support you
And to help you out
And to always be there waiting.
P
I've realized
that it was
my mistake.
I never should have
asked you to value something
you had gotten
for free
for so long.
I should have never given myself
so freely,
to you.
You showed me
that you aren't ready
to give yourself
back to me
in return.
You are only ready
to take
and to ask for more.
It was
my mistake.
You don't get it.
If you treated anyone else
that cared for you
the way you treated me-
they would have walked away.
I want to
right now.
But my shoes are glued.
I'm stuck.
No matter-
I like
running barefoot
anyways.
I asked you
for the least
you could do.
And I would have settled
for just
that.
You laughed and asked
why instead of you
moving one centimeter-
I couldn't move
ten miles
to you.
If I could have
I would have given you
those ten miles.
I would probably
have given you
all the miles
I have left.
But now,
I'm out of gas,
stranded on the side
of the highway,
calling you for a ride home.
And you ask,
why I can't
just walk.
It would be funny
if it weren't so sad,
that the first word I learned
was also the first word
I learned to forget.
No.
I used to say it all the time.
"Do you want peas?"
No.
"Will you feed the dog?"
No.
"Can you PLEASE stop making so much noise?!?!"
NO.
But childhood obstinance
gave way to the yeses
of wanting desperately
to be a grown up.
I started saying yes
to things I had no desire to do.
I've only gotten better at yeses with time.
"Can you help me with homework
after school?"
Sure
"Do you want to dance?"
Absolutely!
"Is it ok if I ditch you to go to Chipotle?"
Works for me.
So by the time
I reached you,
No was no longer in my vo
Love is
cycling slow
so that she doesn't get left behind.
Love is
being the last person up the mountain
so that you can
hold her hand
Through the rough spots.
Love is
telling her she looks beautiful
on days when she needs to hear it.
Love is never hesitating
when she asks you
to choose her.
Love is knowing
when not to ask.
because it would be too much,
and you know
she hates saying no
to you.
Love is saying I'm sorry a lot
and meaning it every time.
Love is running after her
when she starts to walk away.
Love is asking her to come back
and giving her
a reason to stay.
I'm just about
at the end of my rope
with you.
I won't wait around
to be your second choice.
I tried to make
my love stretch enough
for the both of us,
but even Gumby
could never have stretched that far.
Each time I think
I've finally almost done it,
you ask me for another
inch or
foot or
mile.
That I no longer have.
I'm a flexible girl,
I'm too stretchy and forgiving
for my own good
with most people.
I let them bend me
so far out of the shape
that was me
that sometimes
I don't remember how to
snap back into myself.
So now-
I have to pull myself
back and away
from you.
And begin the process
of re-forming
myself into me
again.
Beca
Do you know-
that you've never once
told me
that I look beautiful?
Do you know-
that hearing you
say those three words
would make my day?
Do you know
that little things-
like kind words
and making time
and remembering details-
like birthdays
and the colour of my eyes-
matter?
And I know
that a thirty minute drive
seems like a lot to ask-
but I guarantee
that it would make my day.
I'm not sure
if I've ever
made your day.
But I'm sure I've tried.
With hand knitted hats
and fresh cookies
and poems.
I've tried like hell
to be the reason you smile.
And now-
I don't see you trying
at all.
Maybe thirty minutes is too much
to ask for.
I'd s
One of the Good Ones by mathewswithonet, literature
Literature
One of the Good Ones
My mother never warned me about you.
She warned me about the
Bad boys
And the
Rebels
And the ones with tattoos
And especially,
The ones who rode motorcycles.
But she had nothing but praise
For you.
You were supposed to be
One of the good ones.
You weren’t supposed to
Break my heart and leave me
Gasping for air.
And you have no idea
That you are taking me for granted.
And that every time
I leave your apartment
I feel like a sucker.
Because I keep coming back
To be your pillar
And you wont even be my shoulder
To lean on.
I support all of your weight
How can I not?
It’s in my very nature.
But the moment I need you to be there
To j
I asked you to choose me
And you laughed.
Because the idea that you would
Choose me over her
Is funny.
Funny me, making jokes.
And I laughed too
But on the inside
I felt like I was crumbling into
Little pieces.
Because you have no problem
Asking me to spend all of my time
Coming to see you
And you have no problem
Asking me to put my life
And my school
And my family
On hold.
For you.
But when I asked you to choose me
You laughed.
Funny me, making jokes.
I went to you today,
And asked you to be the shoulder I was in desperate need of
Am in desperate need of.
Still.
And you tried, for a minute.
And then you got tired, or bored
And you stopped listening.
You didn’t want to hear about my problems anymore
And so I stopped telling you
Instead I asked what was up with you
And then instead of getting the shoulder
I was in desperate need of
I became your wall
To bounce all of your ideas off of
Like ten million little bouncy rubber balls
That you buy from a machine for a quarter.
I put on my happy face
And I became your pillar
To support you
And to help you out
And to always be there waiting.
P
All I wanted from someone was
a hand hold
a gentle touch to the shoulder
a warm and inviting hug
when I felt
alone
All I wanted from someone was
A quiet voice
And
A loaned ear
But sometimes I wish
for more things than I am worth.
I'm sorry.
Sorry I'm the friend
that is always complaining
about herself, never stopping
to listen to you.
Sorry I pass your compliments off as
lies, sweet attempts to
make me feel better about myself.
I know you usually mean what you say,
but I can't help not believing you.
And I'm sorry I feel the need to
apologize for every little thing
that I do, or say, or feel,
and I'm sorry I just wrote a whole poem
apologizing for myself.
Sorry.
I want to be able to say to you
Hello, how are you?
I want to be able to say to you
what I’ve been
feeling
I think I feel, as if, if you
left my life without having the
experience of being called yours
I would be missing something in my
life that I could never have again.
I want to be able to
say that I am yours.
more and more
more and more
Can you feel the differences in my touch
Can you hear the differences in my voice
Can you see the differences in my smile
my apprehensive looks
When you’re around?
does it affect you more and more?
When we talk?
More and more.
When we to
Someday, I'll find my courage
Someday, I'll be brave enough to say "hi"
Someday, we'll just sit and talk. And that's fine too
Someday, I'll tell you everything on my mind and I'll listen to everything on yours
Someday, you'll understand how I feel about you
Someday, it'll be more than passing glances
Someday, it'll be more than just three hours every other day
Someday, everything will all be ok, because it'll be just you and me
Someday, you'll see we're not so different after all
Someday, I'll see much more clearly than before you came along
Someday, you'll be mine
Someday, I'll be yours
Someday, we'll get somewhere together
Someday, you'l